Regret?

I'm feeling completely emotional right now about my choice of course. I'd taken the Tindikan Kimia course, at KMS and day by day, I'm starting to regret it. Why? Because I know where my heart lays. I remember when I was still in high school, free from all this blasphemy of making the all-so-important choice that will determine your future. All I wanted then was not to attend KMS (because my sister did, and I want to expand my horizon, broaden my view in life by attending other institute) and get a course that will enable me to further my study in South Korea. Why? Because I freaking love that country like mad. All those promotional images about how heavenly Korea is and how cool their customs and traditions are through their songs, drama and movies had really affected me like mad. Korea Tourism Board, you did something right there.

Here comes the all important moment that night when I wanted to select my course of choice to apply for MARA scholarship. One particular course had triggered my interest, and my heart felt like it was about to burst with happiness. I love this course. It was an Animation course, and yes, you will pursue your study at S.Korea. Amazing, really. I like everything about this course. So I jokingly (although I really was serious at that time) said to my mum, what if I take this course? She answered flatly, no. What's the point of spending five years of your high school life in science side if you ain't gonna take a science-related course? Ooh, what about medic? were what my mum said to me. Well, there's nothing that I dislike more than medic. It's not that I hate it, it's just that I have no interest whatsoever, not even a tiny bit of interest to take this course.

So in the end, I decided to choose Tindikan Kimia. If I succeed, I will further my study to Australia or New Zealand, which is on the opposite hemisphere from where I want to be. It hit me a few days ago that maybe I was an idiot listening to other people telling me what to do with my life. Is it?