4th november

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

pretty cupcakes are good :)

It was Mum's birthday yesterday, so my sister and I planned a surprise birthday cupcakes delivery for her. The cupcakes were to be delivered in the late evening so I planned to only call her then. So I deliberately did not wish her in the morning as I used to, and she got a little bit annoyed. She then gave me a call in the afternoon.

Mum : Are you out of credit?

Me : Umm no.

Mum : So I was wondering why didn't you wish me early in the morning like you used to?

Me : *stammers* ....because I wanted to wish you during the night?

Mum : Why? 

Me : ....because...night's a great time to wish someone! (Such an idiotic excuse)

Mum : I don't get it...

Me : Alright, happy birthday mum!

So my own mother kinda spoiled the surprise I prepared for her, but thankfully I managed to wriggle my way out of that one by rambling about my final exam. Of course, that launched an entirely different kind of conversation.

Mum : Now don't you forget to start your revision early. Focus during class and stop playing around. Limit the amount of time with internet. And for God's sake try not to fall asleep during the lectures!

That was of course, a bit exaggerated. My mum will never say 'for God's sake'. But it added a bit of flair to the dialogue and everyone knows I love to exaggerate stuff.

Anyway, turns out that the surprise worked! Mum was suprised at the delivery so she's happy, I'm happy, everyone's happy, alhamdulillah :)

She called after the cupcakes were delivered to express her happiness, and told me how she thought that I actually forgot her birthday, and complained to Dad, who knew about my plan.

Mum : I wonder why didn't Ana wish me like she used to.

Dad : Now don't you think badly of her.

Mum : It's not that. Maybe she doesn't have any credit that she didn't call. If she didn't then she should have told us, so that I can go and buy some. I mean, why didn't she say anything.

Dad : Don't worry about it. You might get more than a birthday wish later.

Mum : Yeah but I want our children to remember their parents' birthdays...

Heh I just love how my mum was annoyed with me. But I wish that I could see the expression on my mother's face when she received the cupcakes.

this is love

For the last time, happy birthday mum! <3

changes

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Change is hard, but it is not impossible. Day by day we are faced with so many changes and there are just so many decisions to make. Our guide? Back to Allah and Rasul.

Once in a while you may trip and fall. You may suddenly revert back to the way you used to be. You may at one moment felt lazy to do jamaah at the surau or masjid. You may one day find it hard to open up the Quran. Instead, you prefer to dwell in all the dunya stuff. All those fantastic movies in your laptop just waiting to be watched and enjoyed.

The sound of adhan reverberates, disturbing the stillness of the air. But you still stay at your spot, unable to move. Or is it because you don't want to? Or is it because of your nafs? Shaytaan?

"Just a little bit more..."

As a human, it is okay to err. Making mistakes and stumbles are perfectly normal for a human in order for them to become stronger. Stronger in the sense of their imaan, and eagerness to give to Allah. Stronger in facing their daily battle with nafs and shaytaan. Stronger in going against the tide of hedonism that seems to be engraved in the hearts of the people nowadays.

Be strong for Islam.

For what matters is, you have to get back up. I have to get back up. And preferably, take someone's hand while you're at it. Be it your family of friends. Make sure that you're not going to stand up alone. And there's so many ways you can go back to Him. (Attending Islamic lectures is one of my favourite ways of trying to get back up. I feel blessed that here in KMS, there will be talks given by the seniors or ustaz between the Maghrib and Isha' prayer. And if there isn't one, the YouTube is always a great alternative.)

May Allah gives us all strength. Amin.